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San Francisco March 29th – September 15th 2010.

170 Days of the Summer of love (or as my ‘artner called it–“the last summer of my childhood”)

Memorable highlights:

I must have said “Can I have a baby veggie espinaca tortilla con papas y queso y todo con la salsa verde” 200 times.

– Volunteering at the SF International Film Festival, meeting my friend Sandrine; the director of “Moscow” (a Korean film I reviewed in Korea and hated, but of course told the director I loved…) and director Jon Goldman (whose film I actually loved).

– Volunteering at SF Camerawork, thereby meeting my good friend Liz as well as “Darling”, my artner.

– Being invited to my first official wedding (Yay Whitney & Ryan !) and my first ever pro baseball game (The Giants first game of the season…they ended up winning the World Series!)

Swing dancing at Le Colonial with my friend Erin, the Art Deco Preservation Ball and the Gatsby Summer Afternoon

– Crazy mansion parties thanks to these guys. Got a glimpse of “The Social Network” California lifestyle.

– “walking into my computer desktop” aka seeing “the painted ladies”, an image I’d had on my computer desktop in Korea

– The “Art & Chai” event at 18 Reasons, met Yosh Han, amazing perfumist (“Stargazer” is my new signature scent)

– Discovering Decades of Fashion, and the Fluevog store (bought boots for Burlesque routine!) PS Fluevogs are Canadian, but it was still cool to buy Fluevogs in the Haight, just cause it’s the Haight!

Bombshell Betty’s Burlesquercise workshop and the creation of my burlesque alter-ego.

– My first in-studio photography workshops thanks to SF Meetup.com’s Photolight group.

– A workshop with Laura Fraser at “The Writers Grotto

– Launching my Maternity Photography business and http://www.francesdarwin.com, and meeting wonderful clients and business partners, especially Ken at Nest Maternity, Dacry at Henna Lounge and Reise at Seed In the Garden.

– Working as a script supervisor on Eirini Steirou‘s film Counterattack (we worked with the cinematographer from the film Babies!) Can you say pigeons pigeons pigeons?

-Hanging out with my amazing friends Kate and Chris, who run the Roxie Theater

– Going on a road trip to Saratoga to see Canadian artists Rufus and Martha Wainright

– Babysitting an 8 year old and pretending to be an 8 year old for a few days.

– Spending a week in the Nevada desert for Burning Man.

I am so mad. I just wrote a long post and it got deleted. Agh. I can’t be bothered to write is again. Thank goodness a picture speaks 1000 words. They won’t be my words exactly, but I think you’ll get the idea. Main points: I met with a quilter/artist today about making the quilt in the “Lady of Shallot” painting. I also went into the local piano store and was again entranced by the anatomy of pianos. I did my first (un)dress rehearsal for my “My Fair Lady” burlesque routine. This is my 102nd day in San Francisco. As my friend Emily said today, the reality of my situation has hit me.  It’s not a vacation anymore, but I still love it here. 

My Fair Lady

My burlesque alter-ego will be performing her first solo act at San Francisco’s Elbo Room on July 13th and at The Uptown in Oakland on the 19th.

San Francisco Pride’s 40th anniversary was this weekend, but the excitement I experienced on MUNI (the SF version of “the TTC”) was enough colour, glitter and bodies for me! I didn’t go near the Castro this weekend as my “Artner” had returned from Sweden and I wanted to spend some quality time with him. I learned how to make “Kasha” with “Masla”, porridge with butter, and learned other tricks like “wait for the pan to heat up before putting the food in”. I don’t  know why this matters, but I have been told by several people on several occasions that it makes all the difference. Apparently cooking in a glass baking dish as opposed to a metal baking dish can also make a difference. If anyone can enlighten me as to the reason, please do.

Must be funny…in a rich Fran’s world! Today I made $45 in an hour! How you ask? By tapping a party trick that I never considered doing for money until now: reading tarot cards! I answered an ad on Craig’s List for a “tarot card reader substitute”. I got to sit in the lobby of a Mermaid themed hotel (Hotel Triton) and tell people what I saw in their cards. How could things get any better? I am now seriously considering going to Union Square and casually reading Tarot Cards for tourists…At this rate, I could make a lot more money reading tarot than I could taking pictures!

That being said, I love what I do (aka being a photogrpher), and I want to keep doing it. I don’t care what people are saying about the economy. If you put your mind to something, you can do it. I’m ready to kick San Francisco’s ass. I got an email from Korea recently that re-motivated me. It both thrilled and horrified me…it was a job offer in which I could be working as a full time writer and editor at a goverment organization in Seoul! To be a paid full-time writer in any country is a dream job…That’s the part that thrilled me. The part that scared the shit out of me was, well…Korea. I started remembering all the reasons I left (cold, conservative, boring, grey, no love life…) and I resolved that I wasn’t quite ready to go back yet (I might at the end of the summer, it would be nice to have a steady job to go to) and until then, I am going to make it in San Francisco!

I must have emailed about 40 maternity businesses in the past 2 days: doulas, midwives, yoga instructors…I think my efforts are paying off. I seemed to have scored 4 clients in 2 days, which is a record setting rate for me. If I keep this up, I will be golden. Thank you thank you thank you universe!

What have I been doing besides work related things? The past few weeks are very bare on my calander…I was basically…doing what? Having an amazing time with my boyfriend and (after he left for Sweden) feeling sorry for myself or being outside in the sunshine doing nothing in particular.

A couple of things that I did do that are worth mentioning, are that I babysat an 8 year old version of myself, also called Frances, although her nicknake is Frankie for short.  I had a great time with her.  We walked her dog, slid down slides, played Chess and Snakes and Ladder and Monopoly, went bowling, went biking, flew a kite, went to Zeum (a science/techonology museum for kids) and talked about boys.  Best 2 days ever!  I hope I get to babysit her again.

I also should add that since I moved into my new place I haven’t cooked a single meal…I’ve been surviving off cereal and Cliff Bars and Burritos. Bad Fran! I think subconscioly I’ve been counting down the days until I can move into a differnt house with an emptier fridge, so I will have room to buy groceries and a kitchen clean enough to cook in. This is of course, not my housemates’ faults (sadly now that I’m ready to move out I finally feel like I’m connecting with them) I think I’ve just been super duper lazy this month and I’m trying to blame my new situation for my laziness.

Now, as my dad would say, I’m going to “put my ass into gear”. Vroooom! I’m meeting a bunch of cool people in the next couple of weeks:

* Friday: A woman who put my photographs of astrologist Susan Miller on Susan’s Japanese Blog

* Saturday: A Ukranian Jew who has been at a Tango Camp in Sweden, aka my “artner” (Boyfriend is a stupid, inadequet term. And Partner is too formal. “Artner” is a term I’m stealing from my French friend Sandrine’s dance choreographer, who uses this term to describe her significant other.)

* Monday: A Russian Doula named Ana

* Tuesday: a documentary film maker whose lastest film is about the “politics of facial hair

* Wednesday: I’m going to Dickerman Fine Arts Printing Lab! Thanks to this super awesome photography meet up group I’m part of, we get to make an 18″x30″ print for FREE!

* Thursday: I have Burlesque class. I am scared shitless…I’ve missed quite a few classes and the reality of having to get up on stage in a couple of weeks and take all my clothes off is kind of terrifying! Not to mention I haven’t even started choreographing a routine or making a costume! Ahhhh!

I’m also hoping to meet up with Erin Mahoney’s friend Deanna Gibbons, who is an incredible Milliner. She makes hats for will.i.am of the Black Eyed Peas!

Dearest Blog,

The past week has been kind of a downer, but today I got the sense that things would soon be starting afresh. This morning I returned to “The Dog Patch” for the first time since day 3, the magical day that I met Erin the dress designer. That day I had purchased a bike and then went swing dancing. Today I returned to meet Erin, with no bike at my side. I had a strange sense of deja vu.

I would quickly like to explain the somewhat ironic circumstances under which my bike was stolen: I had been attending the San Francisco Film Society’s “Far Flung Films” event (a discussion by documentary film makers about their experiences filming overseas, which included the director of “Trembling Before G-d”, a film I’d watched in University, as well a married couple doing a film about a murder mystery on the Galapagos Islands.) The film maker I resonated with the most had just completed a film called “The Beard Club”, and her next film is about sustainable urban transit. I went up to chat with her after the discussion and proudly told her “I’m a huge supporter of sustainable urban transit. I biked here!” A minute later I walked outside to find my bike was gone. “Well, I guess I won’t be biking home.” I thought. Here is to rusty red. My beloved bike. I shall miss you. I hope you are treated well by whoever stole you.

Anyways, back to Erin: At the Art Deco Ball she had mentioned that she had designed the dress from the John William Waterhouse painting “The Lady of Shallot”. I freaked out at this point, because one of my foremost artistic projects is to recreate that painting in photographic form. So Erin will be my costume supplier and model. All I need now is a marsh and a wooden boat.

I went to Erin’s studio today to see the dress. Firstly, her studio blew me away. It’s in an artist’s warehouse which is subsidized, so the space is extremely cheap by San Francisco standards. Erin’s space overlooks part of the city. Even though it was a tiny space, it was ripe with photographic opportunities:

After chatting, Erin and I returned to our first meeting place:

Sadly the “Veggie Reuben” is only available on the weekdays. We also strolled by The Hell’s Angels Clubhouse, so I was able to get some photos this time.


Instead of doing the “immediate gratification” thing that I used to do (buying stuff I wanted when I wanted…and couldn’t afford to) I’ve decided to start keeping a list of stuff I will acquire when I can afford it.  I’m sure I’ll lose interest in most things…but not these things!

Giraffe “Savannah” statue by Nino Lopez, which I saw in the Petris Gallery in Sausalito:I also saw an incredible, breath taking, spinning diamond ring (half the price of the giraffe)!  I’ve always wanted a spinning diamond ring…It would be like wearing a mini universe on your finger.  Anyways, Yesterday I went into Macy’s and tried on a BCBGMaxazria dress…dangerous.  I have another BCBG dress that I impulse bought a few years ago.  It was so worth it.  I wore it to almost every wedding I went to, and to Christmas dinners.  I knew this new BCBG dress would be a worthy purchase, which is I left Macys immedietely after trying it on.  The temptation was almost too strong.  I am SO buying that when it goes on sale.  Classic.  You just can’t go wrong.
While I was in Mill Valley I found this incredible bubble hem rain coat by Montreal designer Joseph Ribkoff…The BCBG dress is first though…

Dear Trader Joes,

I love you and your Hawaiian shirt wearing staff, but I can no longer afford your organic produce.  I’ve gone back to my Chinese market habits, which have proven immeasurably cheaper.  Let’s compare shall we?  The last time I was at your store I spent $31.86 for 13 produce items.  Today I went to the chinese market and spent $17.17 on 14 produce items, not to mention the quantity of what I bought was at least double what you provide.  When I am rich, I will return to your open arms.

love,

Frances

Quite the title, I know, but this was quite the event. May 1st was the Mel Novikoff Award at the 53rd San Francisco International Film Festival. According to Rachel Rosen, the Director of Programming at SFIFF, Roger Ebert was the unanimously elected recipient. After she invited Roger Ebert and his wife Chaz to the stage, Rachel informed the audience that Tilda Swinton was unable to make the awards ceremony (cue the disappointed “awwww” from the audience) because of a scheduling conflict with the production of Lynne Ramsay’s “We Need to talk about Kevin”. (Which, by the way, is a book my friend Emily gave me months ago and I’ve been putting off reading it for months…but now that I know Tilda Swinton will be starring in the movie version, I’m more motivated to read it!) After Tilda’s touching letter, the evening began in earnest with a series of tributes. Terry Zwigoff (Ghost World) was the first to take the stage:

The man strikes me as a hybrid between John Cleese and Tim Burton (I think it was the combination of the mustache, wild curly hair and witty, sarcastic, bitterness). “I first met Roger at Telluride Film Festival in 1984 where I had my first film, “Louie Bluie”…I think 12 people showed up to see the film…But one of the first people in line was Roger Ebert, which was a big deal to me. I remember that I was in the lobby selling LPs, which sort of dates the whole thing.” [cue audience laughing] “They were soundtracks to the film and Roger wanted to buy a few. I said, ‘Just take a few, you know, I’m a fan.’ And he seemed rather put off by that, rather irritated, like I was trying to bribe him or something…I’m so socially retarded that I don’t think I’ve ever become friends with Roger in the traditional sense. I did have dinner with him and Chaz once, but [John] Malkovich’s whole crazy family was there so I couldn’t get a word in.” Zwigoff wrapped up his section of the presentation by inviting Errol Morris up to the stage. “Ebert called Morris’s “Gates of Heaven” one of the 10 greatest films of all time” Zwigoff said.

Errol Morris, a large, shy man, leaned down over the podium. “I think this is true, many films later — you don’t really know if they’re good or bad. You really depend on someone to tell you that they’re really not as bad as you might think and in fact they might be good! For me, very early on in my career, it was Roger Ebert,” Morris said. “[Roger] champions unlikely films. His overlooked film festival is a perfect example of this. It’s my favourite trophy by the way, the golden thumb. It’s something I’m very, very proud of. Although I was disappointed to learn that it was not actually Roger’s thumb.” At that, Roger gave Morris his famous “Thumbs Up” and nodded proudly. “Oh, is that your thumb?” Errol asked. “Well now I like it even more.”

Next up was the only director I was really familiar with (I apologize for being such an uninformed Film Studies graduate): Jason Reitman, the director of “Thank you for Smoking” and “Juno” took the stage. Unlike the other directors, he had written a speech. Reading from his notes, he said: “I remember arriving at the Toronto Film Festival with this tiny movie about teenage pregnancy starring an unknown Canadian actress named Ellen Page and I really thought that it would be a festival movie, it would not be seen otherwise. And I remember the movie ended and people started to clap and I saw Roger who was actually just sitting a few rows away from me and he nodded at me. By the next morning he had already started talking about the film and he had shone a spotlight on it. He gave people a reason to pay attention to it. I believe that Roger is one of the very few reasons people know the name ‘Juno.’ ”
Reitman, in turn, shone a light on Ebert’s online alter ego, @ebertchicago, saying,
“I know teenage girls that tweet less than Roger Ebert. The Roger Ebert twitter feed is one of the best publications we have running. I don’t mean it sarcastically; I mean it honestly. It’s thoughtful, it’s political, it’s funny, it’s daring, it’s self-effacing. His instincts to write and to share can only be seen as one thing: he wants you to experience what he has experienced.” Later, when I was in line for popcorn, a woman asked me if I followed Roger Ebert on Twitter. “Not yet” I replied. “Today he tweeted about how you should go for walks in the park with the ones you love” she said, “because you never know when you won’t be able to do it again”. “That’s lovely,” I said. Of course, the thought of Roger’s health weighed on my mind. Roger seemed to have problems standing and walking. I thanked the stars for my good health and told myself I would go for a walk in the park the next day. I had been shocked to see how Roger looked after jaw surgery. His mouth was perpetually open, in what seemed to be a huge grin. “It makes him look younger” said my neighbour, when I showed him a picture after the awards ceremony. Speaking of which, it’s not done yet:

The final speaker was Philip Kaufman (“The Right Stuff, ” “Henry & June,” “Quills”). He sat next to Roger, instead of standing at the podium as the other directors had done. His speech was definitely the most personal, and it seemed that he and Roger had a friendship that extended beyond the Film Maker/Film Critic relationship. Kaufmann explained that during the battle to get “Henry & June” into theatres, Ebert fought along beside him. “Once, Roger called me, woke me up at about 6 in the morning. The ratings board had dropped the dreaded Rated X on the film, which meant essentially that it couldn’t be distributed. Roger had been fighting the same fight with the ratings system for years and was calling to tell me that the ratings board had backed down. Because Roger had led the forces of change, they were finally coming up with a new rating, NC-17. Later, he mentioned “Of course since then they’ve found a way to make NC-17 the new X, but that’s another story.”

Kauffman is also from Chicago, and told the audience that “everything you’ve read by this kid Ebert over all these years should be in the context, in the tradition of the Chicago writers. Tough, give-em-hell, non-compromising, no bullshit, tell it like it is, compassionate writers. Like them, Ebert spoke from his heart, spoke against the big boys, championed the little man against small-minded bullies. He told us the truth according to Ebert.” He continued: “Roger and I are both lucky enough to have found the loves of our lives.” Kauffman told the most touching story about his wife, Rose: “We went to see a film, I can’t even remember the name of it or what theater it was in…but anyways, it ended up that one of us liked the film and one of us didn’t, and it escalated into such an argument that Rose slugged me in the face. I spent the night in a series of bars, thinkin’ y’know, ‘who needs this shit?’ and I went home all ready to end it all. But Rose had bolted the door. I was locked out on a cold, windy Chicago night. I went around the side of the house, and I saw that Rose had left our bedroom, our tiny bedroom, window open just a crack. I crawled in and lay down on the bed. Rose had been crying, she had tears all over her face.” Kauffman choked up. “I’m sorry, I thought I’d be able to make it through, but this is really hard.” He took a moment while the audience sat in silence or tried clapping in encouragement. His wife had died in December. “She wrapped herself around me and said ‘enough of this shit baby, let’s make our own films. Let’s make our own films.” Kauffman thanked Roger Ebert for leaving the window open just a crack, although I can’t remember how he contextualized it to make sense, I was still wrapped up in the love story. He had described it such detail that I was already picturing it as a scene from a film. At the end of his speech, Kaufman presented Ebert with both the Mel Novikoff Award as well as a proclamation from San Francisco Mayor Gavin Newsom stating that May 1st would from that point on be known as Roger Ebert Day in the city and county of San Francisco.

Next it was Roger’s turn to speak. It was obvious that he wasn’t able to speak “the traditional way”, since he had been pantomiming the whole evening. He unfolded his laptop to at last say a few words. He typed in some commands, and a computer generated voice filled the Castro Theatre:

“How is it that Eric Zonca’s film “Julia”, starring Tilda Swinton, only grossed $64,000 at the national box office?” He questioned rhetorically . “We are in a crisis of cinema. Incredibly, some studios have announced that they will no longer make what we think of as real movies. They will specialize entirely in 3D, franchises, sequels, special effects, and superheroes. We all know stories about how the best projects from even a few years ago could no longer be financed today. The studios are running like lemmings towards 3D. 3D is an annoying gimmick useful primarily for increasing ticket prices.” The audience seemed to agree…or at least I did. Ebert gestured grandly as the computer pronounced what he’d written: “Truffaut said the most beautiful sight you will see in a cinema is if you sit in the front and turnaround to gaze at all those eyes lifted up to the screen. They are a characterization of the movie and they are an audience. An audience forms a personality. It forms an identity. It is how we shape our collective dreams. I love my DVD collection. I love streaming video. But when I finally am able to see the restored ‘Metropolis’ I promise you it will not be at home on television.” The audience cheered. After his speech, Roger Ebert and his wife walked off stage, and Eric Zonca’s film began. At first I was shocked by Tilda’s psycho, alcaholic, American character…It wasn’t until the second half of the film that I began to really enjoy the dark comedy and irony. It’s an excellent film. You should watch it. Here’s the trailer!

Last night was the 26th annual Art Deco Preservation Ball. I was head over heels and over the moon with the entire event. I’ve always wanted to go back in time so I could photograph that era…but who needs to go back in time with an event like this? I felt like a character in Un bar aux Folies Bergère. I purposely kept my flash off in an attempt to imitate Manet. (Wong era, but whatever!) This slideshow is best viewed with this video as a soundtrack.

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